Such Is Heart

Sometimes, when I catch sight of you, my heart goes all crazy, beating faster than ever. We don’t cross paths much, but every time I see you, that smile of yours — it’s something special. It’s like a cozy blanket for my heart, making it all warm inside. You’re just so graceful, so confident in the way you carry yourself. Even when you push doors that say ‘pull,’ you do it with such poise.

No matter where we end up, it feels like being home when you’re around. Whether it’s in a car or sitting in a café, you always have this thing of curling your feet up on the chair. I still remember the first time you asked if it was okay. I never imagined I’d feel like this again, not in a million years. But here I am, feeling all these things that I can’t really put into words. You might never know, never even come across these words. But I hope, somehow, you feel it — that I care about you, that I’m proud of who you are.

Sometimes, I find myself questioning the nature of this friendship I’m nurturing. I wonder if it’s simply a platonic bond or if it’s all just in my head. I know you’d never express how you feel to the world keeping them tucked away in the depths of your being. And perhaps that’s okay, maybe even expected.

Why did you say that having seven hours pass like lightning is dangerous for an introvert? It’s curious how our minds operate, threading thoughts and emotions in ways that often confound us. Someone once remarked that whatever feelings we hold within will always remain with us. Perhaps there’s truth in that sentiment. As I reflect, I find solace in the mere fact that you’re a part of my life. Your presence, however it’s perceived, brings a sense of contentment that I hold dear.

05/12/2023
- Chathubhanu Adikari