"You haven't been writing for some time now" she said.

"Yes,I did not write"

"Why is that?"

"Probably because I haven't felt that bad for sometime"

"You only write when you are sad ?"

"I don't know. May be, yes. It is at my worst that I find it is very difficult to communicate with someone. It is not easy. So I just write"

"But I hope you may write often. I mean without the heartaches" she said with a little smile.

"We shall see. But no promises"

After that I was left with myself. Do I really write when I am just sad?
It seems true for the most part. But still it doesn't mean I write all the time when I feel sad. But I sure as hell like to feel less certain feelings. May be it is not just me but sometimes I can't help thinking that I am just here so I can make people feel better, they move on and I am just left alone. May be it is my inability to let go or forget things. To be honest, those people aren't bad, they just moved on. It is true that at times we don't get to end up with the people we love most. And even once I left somone who would have done anything I requested too. Then the one who made me feel all the love in the world couldn't be with me or just left me. And now, I don't know how things might end. It is not perfect, never have been. But I felt loved. Right now a little less. But I guess it is what it is. You just have to work it out. It has never been easy. Sometimes I just wish she knows that.